Hello to the still-trying-to-work-very-hard me now, hello to the still-having-a-levels-examinations now, hello to the old me still....... I guess i can't wait till the A's is over to update this no-one-is-reading blog, i'm too excited. There are so so so many things i wanna do after my major A's, like really fucking a lot. It looks like i squeezed all the imagination of wanting to have fun and my freedom in my head that i leave little space for my studies. That sucks. I'm in the midst of my exams, i can't express how much this year is a burden, including school, work and my heart..... Time wait for no man this year and i'm really quite amazed by how fast time has travel, that it has gotten me to prepare for A's so damn quickly when in my memory, it felt like i just did my O's recently. Today is the 19th Nov, it's my favourite day 'cos it's the 19th. And it means there are 8 days left to the 27th, to the day i start searching for my another self. I hate the me now, i want to change whatever is possible. So many things have been happening in my life and i really feel that i have grown so much this year especially that small little things that i will have been fucking mindful about in the past, turns out to be nothing to me now. Probably i grew to not be vulnerable towards things that could hurt me. 8 days left to 27th, it still feel long actually....... But thinking back, maybe it is not, i remember counting down 19 days left to 27th and so on. You see how weird i am to be sinking myself in the days after my big exams and not put myself in the now. Looks like i rather not feel myself suffering. I know i should not be like blogging now and saying all these now but i guess i can still spend a little time on blogging out my feelings (hah~) here now.. I really have so much to say (and honestly, i give no fucks if anyone is reading it, it feels like i always think no one will bother reading it but you won't know if one day, my soulmate or some stalker reading everything about me?) about life. And i'm gonna leave it till after my A's, on the 27th.
Trust me, after every exams, (of course you talk about the paper..) then i will start telling my girls how much i want 27th come and how much fun i wanna have. I know i should not be affecting them because i know everyone is so like DAMN fucking serious in their work..... Except for me. (Get my point, i'm still blogging, and not about exams, it's just the FUN i will get soon..) So i can say it here, talking to myself about how i am going to enjoy life. ^_^ I really got so much to say........ Can't wait to continue blogging daily after my exams (I really love blogging!), and do something really fruitful and meaningful.
And right now, i have to prepare myself for the next paper on the 21st.................. Can you sense the large amount of inertia i need to study:( Oh, and i was just reading my old blog i had 2 years ago and i saw a similar post that i can't seems to study for O's?!?!! But that was rather before the exams... Like 4 days before the English paper (so apparently i can remember it well and that shows how recently i felt..) Ok, so yes..
27th, come to me, i've been waiting for you for a long long time. I will revive my blog once again.
FIGHTING TO ME! ^3^
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